Blog of the White Dove

Currently Addicted To: 1st September 2011

2011-09-01T23:11:00.000+10:00

Music:
Stuff I used to like when I was younger ^_^
also: Taylor Swift - Ours ("Don't you worry your pretty little mind...")
and Jason Derulo - It Girl (possibly the It Song!)

Books: Textbooks. Notebooks. Diaries. Facebook. (Yeah, I'm in a little bit of a terse mood, possibly because I'm disappointed in myself for not having much more to say!)

Food & Drink: Ummm. I have to think long and hard about this!

Person: Welllllllll... my boyfriend. XD

Most prevalent thought(s):

That my want of travel is due to the fact that I associate travel with happiness :D and so, I want to travel as much as possible.
Every time I try to write an extended piece of writing (not poetry or songs) I lose the plot. Well, I don't... it does... :s
That Blogger updated, and good on it!
That I really should write more often, but it's almost exam time at school, and I will be studying for the next few days. D:

Finally, you must read this! XD

http://www.primped.com.au/blogs/beauty-duty/5-incredibly-interesting-things-i-learned-this-week

Currently Addicted To: 23rd July

2011-07-23T22:33:00.000+10:00

Music:

Songs that remind me of him:
Simple Plan - Jet Lag (feat. Natasha Bedingfield)

Simple Plan - Jet Lag (feat. Marie-Mai) - the French version, and much better in my opinion!

Demi Lovato - Get Back

Bachelor Girl - Buses and Trains

Just plain obsessive:
Wynter Gordon - Til Death (Denzal Park Radio Edit)
Good Charlotte - Last Night
Flo Rida feat. Akon - Who Dat Girl
Lady Gaga - Paparazzi
Katy Perry - Teenage Dream (with a very awesome live version here)
Beyonce - Best Thing I Never Had
Third Eye Blind - Semi Charmed Life
Adam Lambert - If I Had You

Just going through my YouTube favourites and here are some things I also like, but am not obsessed with!
Paramore - The Only Exception
Taylor Swift & Lady GaGa - Love Story (Paparazzi Mashup)
Gwen Stefani - The Real Thing
Birds Of Tokyo - Plans
MIKA - Blame It On The Girls
Nicki Minaj - Your Love
Eurythmics - Love Is A Stranger

Lady Gaga - Love Game (Madonna Celebration Mix)

Books:
Dear Venny, Dear Saffron by Gary Crew and Libby Hathorn
Playing the Game by Barbara Taylor Bradford
Strange Bedpersons by Jennifer Crusie
Food & Drink: hmm, I don't know. I really don't. Chocolate. There is lots of it in this house XD

Person: A certain guy whose name starts with the letter A... :D

Most prevalent thought(s):

Feminism...I'm feeling rather like this lately. (Probably because of my Art and FTV assignments?!)
That maybe I should stop waiting for guys. That I should just give up on even liking them. It's not like they even bother to make an effort anyway... :(
(Incidentally, why is it that when I really like a guy this year, he goes all AWOL and won't talk to me for a week?)
That I want to travel.
That I have heaps of potential and should start living up to it - thanks Chris! :D I reckon I'll need all the positivity I can get!

Current Projects:

Assignments and shit. -.-
Writing a list of 100 Goals!
Writing more stuff. Tell you more later (when I can)!
Writing more stuff for this blog ^_^

Aargh!

2011-06-15T09:47:00.001+10:00

That last post (or two) totally screwed itself up.

Apologies.

Help??????

2011-06-15T09:41:00.002+10:00

According to me, there are three reasons why I procrastinate.

I'm not sure what to do, or how to do it. And then get overwhelmed by it.

I don't like what it is that I'm supposed to be doing.

I don't like people looking over my shoulder while I'm working, making me work even less! >.<

I really need to get over this stinking habit.

2011-03-26T11:39:00.000+10:00

Currently Addicted To: 24th March

2011-03-24T22:34:00.001+10:00

Video: I'll just share my top picks on YouTube for now...This is my Music I'm Currently Obsessed With list :)

Kylie Minogue - I Should Be So Lucky

Kylie Minogue - The Loco-Motion

Ke$ha feat. 3OH!3 - Blah Blah Blah

Her Majesty & The Wolves - Stars In Your Eyes
3OH!3 - Don't Trust Me
3OH!3 feat. Katy Perry - Starstrukk

LMFAO feat. Lauren Bennett & GoonRock - Party Rock Anthem

an all audio version of the above

Wynter Gordon - Dirty Talk
3OH!3 - Double Vision
Selena Gomez & The Scene - Who Says (Audio)
and finally, a great mashup: Teenage California Gurls Dream of Tik Tok (Katy Perry vs. Ke$ha) - A Mash-up from DJ Naryan

Or you can be lazy and play the playlist I made up of the above songs...at http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=5F0D816BDE021333 :)

I know a lot of these sound similar, but...hey!

Books: Othello. We are studying it for English, and the intrigue in this is amazing. I can't go on about it enough. Actually, I should write a post on it sometime soon...

Food & Drink: Since it's so hot, ICE CREAM?! What else?!

Person: For once, not Darcy...another guy. (The situation is fucked up and I don't want to explain fucked-up situations, as always!) Also, TJ, for being so great and taking me in. :D Another fucked-up situation!

Most prevalent thought(s):

That I need to get a new phone...preferably under $200, please. Any suggestions?
I procrastinate way too much, and that I'm a lazy arse. I've already procrastinated on this blog post...
My Art piece: that my mind has an architectural structure comparable to a house. More on that soon.

Currently Addicted To...

2010-12-19T14:07:00.000+10:00

Hello everyone, I've decided to revive my bloody blog!

:D

And...I've also decided to delete that stupid "Currently Addicted To..." thingo up the top that would take up half the page, which I used instead of blogging because I was so lazy.

So here goes with the "addictions"!

Video: Just have to show you this remix of Teenage Dream - ultimately the best.

Books: Umm...?
I've been borrowing a lot of books on makeup lately, among other such non-fiction reads as books on language, Victoria Beckham's opinions on fashion, sewing, and of course those occult subjects I love (tarot and Wicca, respectively - haven't actually tried Tarot, but I'll give it a go one day :). Nothing big though.

TV Show: United States of Tara. Dad has converted me. Plus Toni Collette is the best.

Music: (and other related stuff) I really like Nicki Minaj! Quite liking "Your Love" and "Moment 4 Life"...and I'll get back to you whenever I buy her album, Pink Friday. It looks like it's gonna be big, so...
Also I'm hearing (seeing?) on Twitter that Amanda Palmer's got a new song called "Map of Tasmania"...which sounds rather innocent until you realise that female pubic hair grows in roughly the same shape. Laugh. Anyway, I haven't heard it, but as you know I am drawn to anything audacious and controversial, so I will (eventually). But you should go to her blog. http://blog.amandapalmer.net/. I love it. (Although she is going out with Neil Gaiman, which makes me want to say, well..."Please, PLEASE realise you're going out with one of the most celebrated writers in the WORLD!" But it's OK. I got a writer of me own...see below.)

Maybe I should create a section for web pages? Or maybe I'll make that separate seeing as how the Internet is my playground??

Food & Drink: Since it's so hot, ICE CREAM?! What else? (Although it has been storming a lot round these parts :[ )

Person: Darcy. (Grr it pisses me off everytime I misspell his name, damn keyboards!! Damn long fingernails too!!!) Hello, if you've found this! And I promise to update WAY more. I do.

Most prevalent thought(s):

SumSchl (which is its written abbreviation for "Irene and Darcy's Trip To Brisbane So That Irene Can Take That Japanese Enrichment Course", or, more sensibly, "The Trip to Brisbane & Summer School". Just pronounced "Summer School", thank you very much.). We need to do something about it. I need money (and that is a sad thought.) We can't book or anything until I can pay, and I can't pay until I have money, so...Donations greatly appreciated!
It should really stop raining, although steamy hot weather as the alternative is not exactly bearable.

Honestly, I promise to write more soon. \^^^/

The writer's curse.

2010-07-26T23:32:00.000+10:00

Do you know how annoying it is to stare at a blank page (or screen) in frustration, because you seriously can't force yourself yourself to write this piece of crap, and then, when you get relaxed (and possibly also realise it's getting late and you don't want to do it in the morning, OR stay up), the words start flowing?

This is what I'm going through, right now.

Or maybe my problem is that I'm too easily distracted??!

I'm posting now because I had a couple of posts lined up to write, and well, I've been so busy that I haven't finished writng either of them yet :( Plus, it doesn't hurt. I suppose this is a kind of intermediary. Something to let you know that I haven't abandoned BoWD. (Don't worry; despite being a shit blogger, I won't give it up that easily.)

Well, maybe I'm just saying that even though school has just gotten more demanding, I can post.

I should post.

I should write.

;-P

P.S. The reason why I put "art + assignments" as one of the tags for this post is that right now, I am supoosed to be working on my Art essay draft. Which is coming along really slowly and I wish it would just HURRY UP!!!! Lol.

I Have Opinions!

2010-05-23T01:26:00.000+10:00

Wow, it's been a while since I last posted. But anyway, since it is the middle of the night, I suppose I should make my point and go. Grrr so freezing cold, I think my hands are frozen, lol!

Yes there is more. I'm just weird and very cold. :S

Anyways. The Show was pretty fun. Well, maybe the understatement of the century??! But TBH, just a bit too much drama for my liking. You know what - and who - I mean. I didn't go on very many of the rides (ok, I was trying to save money, leave me alone!), and I think Bec was attempting to make Tegan sick...failed there! But it was good fun all around. I will get photos. :)

But yeah, the point of this post being entitled "I Have Opinions" is that I was going to state some of my rather random, pithy thoughts as of late. And maybe a few quotes, for good measure.

Random Thoughts...

How do you define the success of a relationship?
I think it's great to wide your social circle. And it's pretty easy, too: smile, wave or strike up a conversation!
You know you're insane when you write a letter that no one else is ever going to read, and it's 6 pages long.
I am pathetic. Well, not really, but I'm starting to get a more morbid sense of humour. I'm just weirdly believing that I shouldn't cry and be affected by little things. But seriously, how else would you know you've just inadvertently hurt me?
"I am a piece of shit" is quite an example.
"Lesbians!" - any of my (girl) friends. "Condoms!" - gayness. Please try to keep up with the vocab status updates.
Have you ever hated someone so much that you really don't know what to do with yourself? And then started randomly lusting after them?
Love and lust really don't go hand in hand. After all, I don't know how to define "love" - even the dictionary does a crap job at defining it. "Lust", on the other hand, is relatively simple (what do you expect, it's a basic animal emotion). But meh. Not for me.
Am I the only morbid person in the world? Or am I overexaggerating again? (More questions like this in a later instalment of Random Questions Irene Wants to Ask.)

Quotes...

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein. He could have been referring to my bad habits (especially procrastination).
"The heart has its reasons that reason knows nothing of." ~Blaise Pascal, Pensées, 1670. Quite appropiate to the conversation D & I were having about reasons last night, etc.(Oh, riiiight, it's finally morning!)
"We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love." ~Author Unknown. Quite whimsical, is it not?

The last two quotes are from http://www.quotegarden.com/teen-love.html.

Oh, before I forget. I was reading Kaz Cooke's Get a Grip today and I loved it. Kaz has the funniest, most sarcastic way of putting everything, I was cracking up even when I knew I wasn't supposed to crack up! I hope to write something like that someday. 'Course, I know, it's a collection of articles, essays, whatever you want to call it. I want to write a collection of articles. I also looked up to Cher's The First Time and, yes, I do admire the format, I just feel weird, finding out it was ghostwritten. Pah. I have opinions on that too. I just haven't gotten to expressing those with written words yet.

Happy Sweet 16th to Me!

2010-04-21T21:37:00.001+10:00

Yeah, I probably smell like cat pee, too, and look like a monkey...OKAY, okay, I'll stop with the self-bashing. You know I was joking. ;>

Annnyways, in commemoration (or should it be celebration? Nah, it's not really a celebration as such, more like a deliberate concidence) of my 16th birthday, and also the fact that we are studying Japanese diary entries this term, I have decided to keep a Japanese diary.

I have already written 3 times today, and I can safely say it is HARD with a capital H. (Or more.)

Why? Oh for God's sake it's a FOREIGN LANGUAGE. To me anyway. And even though everyone thinks I'm a genius at Japanese, I'm...not. So sue me.

Well, I haven't been studying Japanese for the same amount of time I have English. As in, there are certain trivialities and colloquialisms I've picked up because this incredibly complex language I speak as a first language is perpetually evolving. I haven't picked up the same nuances in Japanese, not at this stage anyway...that's why I'm going to study it at uni! I have a basic Japanese vocab and sentence pattern/grammar bank. Which means I need to expand my vocab for it to include the words I use in the English language every day. (And, hurrah, most of those words I obtained from reading high school bio textbooks when I was, say, 5; and later on in life deciding to scour the dictionary for interesting and recherche words I could use to annoy everybody/make them think I'm a smartarse. I still do the latter, just not as much - I think that since I entered high school I dumbed down a bit. Haha)

So how do I go about expanding my Japanese vocab to the size of my English one??

OK, and unofficial news on the exculsive party front: hopefully Saturday - not this one, next. Will give out heavy paper, bond white, calligraphic invitations when all this becomes official.

My Wish List, aka What I would Like for my 16th Birthday.

2010-04-20T23:38:00.001+10:00

Since this is supposed to be my most talked about and, indeed, most clichéd birthday, I am making my wish list, for the first time, public!

You, dear reader, must be one of my nearest and dearest, because you probably already know of my habit of making random lists. (And you should be; how weird would it be to get a present from a complete stranger!) And it's because of you lot that I have to now publicly advertise what few worldly things I still want! But anyway.

A few suggestions first before I get into specifics (and yes, I'll do it with my trademark sense of humour!):

I won't mind if you don't get anything on this list. My tastes usually remain the same, year after year after year (-3. But if you're one of the people who's known me for a while, use your imagination and if you see something I might like, by all means go and get it. You never know.
However, there are some things no one will get me:

Stationery, unless it's some fancy pens or pencils. Which is always good. I like unusual stationery ^_^
Underwear. No one is going there. (Even though I do need some, haha.)

I'm sorry that I can't be more specific in places, but that's only because I don't want too many things. Just a rule of thumb:

If it's pretty, I'll like it.
If it's got something to do with Japanese, I'll definitely like it.
If it's unusual, I'll possibly like it. Unless it's Salvador Dali inspired, which is just plain weird. Sorry Dali, your tastes aren't for everyone.

Here are the things I would like, pretty please. Except I'm not sure about half of them. But oh well.

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	Another pack of cards. The lot I got has missing and bent cards and it smells. ^_^
	I would really like a pair of shoes just like these. Really.
	The shade of nail polish I have been dreaming about since this past summer - OPI's No Room for the Blues. Perfect with abovementioned shoes. (Yeah, I know I sound like a girl.)
	Maybelline Lash Stiletto mascara. Please. Or a waterproof one. Definitely in black.
	Maybelline Mineral Power foundation, in Sandy Beige.
	The new Maybelline Colour Sensational lipcolours, in Blushing Brunette, Pink Wink, Pink Me Up. Or whatever colour you think would suit me ;) P.S. On the make-up note, these are the specifics. I would be very happy with the person who can find a deep violet sparkly eyeliner! :D
	And obviously there's the old stand-by: a special notebook. Preferably with lines, but I'll also take unlined, too. I'm trying to build a collection C-3

So let me know how this goes...if you can't find something for me, don't be afraid to call me up and ASK! Surprises are no fun anyway...I can almost anticipate them a mile away.

Love you all, Irene oxox
(who will be 16 in, well, 24 minutes...technically, 6 hours and 26 minutes!)

P.S. I'll keep you updated on my exclusive, invitation-only birthday gathering. You know who you are, you lucky ducks. ;>

Love is a 4 Letter Word!

2010-04-09T20:10:00.000+10:00

Yeah, along with shit, fuck, help and want!

Okay, that was a random thought.
Today was great. Really. I don't wanna ruin it for myself (or anyone else involved!) But, well...oh, the buoyancy of laughing with friends and the camaraderie. But, what I think tops that (OMG, Irene is going to be soppy! :-P) is the 3 hours spent getting a grass stain on my butt.

It was kinda worth it. (-3

Again, I'm not going to spoil the fresh new experience of having hot flushes whenever I think about this relationship. And how faint do I feel when this feeling comes over me!

Anyway. I'm leaving now. More soon.

Just another useful feature...

2010-04-03T14:10:00.001+10:00

Thanks to Blogger offering us an updated and improved post editor, I have been giving every post prior to this one a jump break, unless it's really short (like this one will be). I found this idea would be really useful if you tend to blabble on like me, and your blogpage (I mean, the home page that displays at least 7 of your posts at once, etc.) tends to be a bit lengthy, and kind of glad that Blogger introduced this feature! Yay! Of all its foibles, it has finally come up with something useful. ;->

P.S. This means that I, as of now, am working on updating this crummy old blog. Stay tuned...

The Stress. The Pain. THE DEATH.

2010-03-23T17:35:00.004+10:00

Does that title creep you out?

Good!!
Now let's be serious.

I don't know where to START with my complaints about this week...as I mentioned in the title, I'm stressed. Really stressed. I suppose that has something to do with my rather poor time-management skills, or maybe I'm just born a compulsive procrastinator. Though I'd rather not complain about myself, because I have 10 minutes to write about all the shit lately (I'm on the library computer).

Let's start with the worst, possibly, or possibly the most disruptive: "They" are going to take away our spares and, instead, give us a day off every 2nd Friday. You're probably wondering what I'm complaining about! I'm complaining because I know that if I have a day off I will procrastinate even more than I do already, and I'll just sit around at home and be lazy! I'm also complaining because some idiots in our grade (think K.A., I'm not naming names) have been wasting their spares, choosing instead to irritate classes trying to work, running around being little SHITS. Some people have actually started a petition, and I'm working on starting my own, but most teachers I've talked to believe that it won't make much difference, especially since it's all been set in motion, and when we come back to school after the Easter Holidays we will come back to 3 spares a fortnight, meaning our classes will all run together. I wonder what this means for the majority of us who have ridiculous amounts of classes already!

See what happens when democracies decide that if a privilege is being abused by a MINORITY of immature, irresponsible idiots, the privilege is removed from the innocent, law-abiding MAJORITY?

It's not fair, but, c'est la vie!

Anyway, that is the big thing bothering me. Apart from the usual, which basically consists of exam week next week, assignments due this week, and social changes happening all the time. Oh, and me being obsessive/dependent/addicted/reliant on a particular person (this year's ACP lol) to change my happiness, although he isn't very good at it.

All the more reason why I should be able to control my emotions!!

SHOULD!! LIKE I SHOULD BE ABLE TO TIME MANAGE!!

Never mind.
:)

I'm high ;-D

2010-02-26T14:41:00.003+10:00

Well, legally, anyway. :)

I haven't blogged in a while, and I'm aware - in fact, every time I go to write a post, I end up saving it as a draft and trying to finish it later!

Anyway. I am, for once, excited about the weekend...

I may have forgotten to mention the following crucial points:

I have a crush on a guy.
He has a crush on me.
That means we like each other.
We talk to each other every day at school.
I know his phone number off by heart (amongst other things).
We're going to see each other tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (cue really hypo grin)

So yeah. Who knows how long this is gonna last?! (If I'm a genius, which I ain't, then hopefully till the end of this year :->)
I am really high off this Random Person...XD
Will blog properly when I get the time. After all, I am drowning in a sea of schoolwork...

FW: One for the Troops

2009-11-10T20:43:00.002+10:00

Hey people,

I know I don't usually pass on chain mail, but I thought this might be timely because of 11/11/11...aka Rememberance Day...sorry 2 the people who get this twice. (You know my policy on chain mail!) Anyway...have a nice Rememberance Day tomorrow. Sincerely, Irene \^^^/

P.S. I took out all the forwarding stuff and photos. Pass this on!! ;D

You stay up for 16 hours
He stays up for days on end.

You take a warm shower to help you wake up.
He goes days or weeks without running water.

You complain of a 'headache', and call in sick.
He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.

You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends.
He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.

You make sure you're mobile phone is in your pocket.
He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.

You talk trash about your 'buddies' that aren't with you.
He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.

You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.
He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.

You complain about how hot it is.
He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.

You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.
He doesn't get to eat today.

Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.
He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.

You go to the mall and get your hair redone.
He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.

You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.
He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.

You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.
He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home .

You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.
He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume..

You roll your eyes as a baby cries.
He gets a letter with pictures of his new child, and wonders if they'll ever meet.

You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.
He sees the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remembers why he is fighting.

You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like him.
He hears the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.

You see only what the media wants you to see.
He sees the broken bodies lying around him.

You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.
He does exactly what he is told even if it puts his life in danger.

You stay at home and watch TV.
He takes whatever time he is given to call, write home , sleep, and eat.

You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.
He tries to sleep but gets woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.

If you support your troops, send this to 7 people.
If you don't support your troops well, then don't send this out. You won't die in 7 days, your love life won't be affected, and you won't have the worst day ever.
You don't have to email this. It's not like you know the men and women that are dying to preserve your rights.

REMEMBER our Troops, and do not forget them LATER
Lest we forget -
KEEP THE CHAIN GOING

I have to write...

2009-11-05T11:40:00.000+10:00

Just so you know, my next post is going to be "Something is rotten in the state of Denmark". I don't have time to put it up at this very moment.

Anyway, abouy me having to write, I feel as if my days are TORTURE!!! Yet again I have another crush (yes, the End of Year syndrome) and once again I cannot go out with him. ARGH!! I want to look to astrology to sort this out, but again, I don't have time.

Yes, he sits in the library, looking at books.
No, he is not more social than me.
Yes, he is getting a Meritorious Award, unlike me for once, which means he has beaten me in the smartness dept. (BTW I'm trying to be dumb because everyone expects me to be smart! MOTL)
No, he is not my age.

Something is rotten in the state of Denmark, and I don't know what to do about it.

Drama Queen?

2009-10-13T19:10:00.005+10:00

Sure, I've heard people call me a Kanji Queen. It's kinda my job. But am I really that bad? Do I overdramatise? Exaggerate? Fabricate?? Oh, maybe.

Especially when I do reading in English (oh, and btw we are reading the "Unfortunate Scottish Play", otherwise known as Macbeth, which calls for some drama) and people comment on my expression...I can't help being different! :) Where everyone else is droning out their lines, I put life into Lady Macduff as she is chased off stage by murderers. Seriously, can everyone please try to enjoy English for once?! I know I am (lol).

But when I say I am in deep shit, I usually kinda mean it (deep shit for me anyway, I don't know what your definition of "deep shit" is!).

So I'll say it once more.

I am in deep shit!!!!

Sidetracking from the subject of me being in excrement, my report card has gone downhill yet again. (I may have to make a graph for it, haha) At the end of Semester 1, I had 5 A's (and 1 D APU because I hate HPE naturally). Now, I have 2 A's, 2 B's, a C and a Not Yet Competent (haven't finished Work Ed yet).

Oh deeear. Will, in this final stretch of Yr 10, put more effort into my schoolwork. I think I'll find that I'll find it easier this term because Murray and I are no longer together. :(

Gee, have you ever heard of more drama in one week?

I should get going. I have better things to do, I go to bed in 1 1/2 hrs.

TTYL! \^^^/

If White's The New Black...

2009-09-12T16:18:00.003+10:00

Which I’m sure it is, then… Stories and writing – hell, just being literate, for God’s sake – are the new White.

They are your perfect accessory…Go on a car trip, take a book or at least a notepad and pen. And actually marvel at what gets produced. They’re not messy or fussy, unless you yourself happen to be either of the above, in which case you will find yourself furiously scribbling out your latest piece of shit. And then rewriting it. And then re erasing it. And then giving up, unless you are one of those awfully stubborn people (ahem, Murray the Perfectionist and my darling boyfriend…please don’t try this exercise).

I’m sure all our old English teachers will be pleased with us. Actually, on second thought, why wouldn’t they? My friends can always be seen with a book (or a few…plus pens and pencils, in my case) in tow. We’re not bad at grammar, because we make the rest of the school (and Rebecca) look like idiots. (OK, maybe that’s just me.) And, if you know me (who doesn’t know the “Miss Perfect” stereotype?) you’d probably know all the teachers don’t mind me. Wow, is this because I’m agreeable, or am I actually wiser than my years? (Sarcasm intended.)

Enough about me and my big head. ;) Even my best friend, Rebecca, is working on a few short stories. I’ve read a little bit of each, and have to say I’m impressed. She has the oddest imagination ever, though. No harm intended, Bec. :P

Maybe I should get amongst the literati and, er, start churning out more material. Which, I have to admit, I do have a few projects in the pipeline (though sadly no short stories or books) – namely some songs by the names of Played to Perfection, Full Moon, Bleeding Violet, Love & Pain, and Too Good, Too Bad – but all this is getting in the way:

Japanese assignment, which I am admittedly behind on
Trying to do some of the Maths work which really is too darn easy
Trying to apply for jobs – which also involves getting one last reference from another kindly teacher, and searching the newspaper, and bugging Rebecca’s mum.
Cleaning my room, because it’s gotten so bad, I’ve lost half my stuff in the mess.
And, finally, a Hospitality assignment, which is – surprise, surprise – to create a recipe for a stir fry. I honestly think that at this rate, apart from majorly crashing and burning, I am seriously not cut out for Hospitality.
And trying to go to sleep at my bedtime. At this rate, I will be going to bed at 11:30. BAAAAAD GIIIIIRL, IREEEEENE. >:-(

After listing all that you can see why I seriously don’t feel inspired anymore.
(I actually wrote this on 1/9/09)

When Good Girls Go Bad...

2009-09-07T20:37:00.014+10:00

♪ Cobra Starship featuring Leighton Meester - Good Girls Go Bad ♪

I have to admit, I love this song. Though it seems like more of a party song than an actual assertation of the fact that bad boys turn, well, good girls bad.

Ahem. Look at me!

Really. Take a look.

<-- Me.

Hahahahaha. Now I am laughing because I realised in Art we have to do self portraits. HOW??? I don't want the whole class and, umm, the rest of the school staring at a blown up picture of me. I feel *really* comfortable now.

But you wanna know what happens when a good girl goes bad?

It's from this:

to

this.

What makes me tick? What is my damn problem? WHY DID I GO FLIRT WITH MY EX???!!!
If you wanna know the answer to that, don't ask me. All I know is that we are apparently friends. Wow. :-s
But what about my boyfriend???
People be warned, I may run off. And when I do, I'm not gonna leave anything the way it was before.

As a reacquainted friend of mine said, say hello to the future!

P.S. This is my 50th post!!! (-3 OMG!

My first Blog This challenge... :)

2009-08-22T11:08:00.003+10:00

Hi people!

I'm understanding that for this, I have to tell the entire world (at least, anyone who's reading this :-> ) what I want.

The only problem with that is that I'm not actually sure what I want. 5 things???? I'm sure I've got all the bases covered already. Stable-ish family life; good, meaningful friends; a boyfriend who, despite his and (my!) insecurities, still adores me; school seems to be flying by just fine (read: no one is picking on me and all the things I could possibly want...I feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the world already.

What DO I want??

I WANT MORE TIME!!!!! Sometimes I think I'm being swamped by all the little everyday things. And then don't get to do something that I really have to, like an assignment or something. Are all the astronomers sure that the days on Earth aren't getting shorter? Cause they feel like they are.

And how they say "time is money, money is time"? Yeah, I guess I want a job. It's embarrassing how much money I have. Guess.

10 cents.

Lol.

In order to save up for the Japan trip next year, I really need to find myself a form of income.

I'll stop blabbering now. I'm on a library computer and I really *really* have to go. Talk to you all later.

:) The Kanji Queen \^^^/

Strange as it seems, nothing has changed...

2009-08-17T11:40:00.003+10:00

Except the fact that I am in extreme pain for no apparent reason. (I think the reason might be the fact I hardly slept all last night. Memo to self: Will try to establish NORMAL sleeping habits)

I guess I got a second chance at having a great birthday...yesterday.

I apologise for being cryptic in this post. Honestly, though, I don't actually want to be direct/specific/whatever. It's just so personal.

But you know how I was going on about wanting a really great birthday this year, because this year was gonna be great? Well, this year hasn't been great, it's been...surprising (if you want great, go read my '08 posts) and my actual birthday was completely crap because it wasn't acknowledged very well. Or treated as anything special. I mean, my parents were like, "Oh, it's Irene's 15th this year. No big."

But I got that...surprising birthday yesterday.
Except it was...well, I don't know how to put it. It just was.

P.S. Off to Jap I go! Yay! (I'm writing this in email at school. Classes! At least it's only Japanese, and I won't fall asleep or anything.)

P.P.S. If you really want to know why I'm being so cryptic, just look at all the purple letters. ^_^ I did this coding today (3/4/10) which is a long while after I wrote this post (which was on the 16th of September 2009, I'm pretty sure).

Not in a template...My life, as it stands.

2009-08-15T22:29:00.004+10:00

Hello...I tried to go on Blogger this afternoon to blog (DUUH!) but the server was down or somethimg, I guess.
So here I am.

You're wondering why I am up at 10:30 PM when I should be sleeping?

I was, er...

Typing my resume.

This is a really surprising fact.

I was typing my resume because, lazy as I am (aargh, that won't make me popular. Irene, please work on your procrastination) I forgot to work on the resume earlier, and so here I am.

I just said that, didn't I?

It might be unprofessional to list every detail about my work life (HA! Or lack of it) so I'll just say I was applying to work at the new Dimmeys (which actually might be kinda fun, considering I saw the place before it got renovated. :>) Nuff said.

But about me personally: Mum and Alisha are both sick, and I'm starting to develop a really phlegmy cough. Yuk. Note, I am trying to refrain from using "txt lnguge" as I am in a bit of a hurry - I'm supposed to be finishing off and packing up.

But anyway, we all knows what happens when someone in this house gets sick - Mum refuses to go out 90% of the time. Not anticipating a shopping trip on Thurs (which was a stroke of good luck - I managed 2 acquire 2 travel brochures on Japan from the local travel agents. Exactly what I needed) I decided to go with TJ and family when they went into town on Friday.

The result? A lot of books. (Actually, 4.)

This was further complicated by the fact that I borrowed out 3 books from the school library on top of the 4 I've already got out.

Too many books!

The point to the story is, well, I borrowed out a couple of books on French, not anticipating it's as hard as learning to read sheet music (aargh, tried that too). I guess I'm just gonna have to accept the fact that it's just not gonna be as easy as Japanese for me.

Rather looking forward to tomorrow...after all, I'll be able to find those 2 dozen things I'm missing at Dad's. And see Murray again...#^_^#

And Monday's just the start of Week 6, Term 3...

I have learnt that time really does fly regardless of whether you're having fun or not.

Till next time,

The Kanji Queen \^^^/

P.S. Shout out 2 TJ!!!! Haha, I have a reader! :-D

My life, as I know it, in a template.

2009-08-05T20:01:00.005+10:00

Now you're probably thinking "What the hell Irene, don't you write enough shit already?!" but I feel it's necessary to let you all know what I've been doing and how I've been lately.

So I invented this, er, "template."

Here goes!

Current music obsession: "Hella Good" by No Doubt (TJ was generous enough to let me raid her family's computer with a random and eclectic mix of music on it when I visited her place with Rebecca and Tegan some time ago. BTW. By eclectic I mean bond, LRB, Blondie and more 80's music (I'm Walkin on Sunshine, whooooa! lol) as well as That's Not My Name (Ting Tings), See You Again (Miley Cyrus) and, obviously, No Doubt!)

Current clothing obsession: Wearing my black boots all around the house, out to the donga, even out to Year 10 into 11 Subject Selection Night! (Coupled with some smart clothes, of course. MOTL.)

What I am doing right now, besides blogging: Apparently learning how to write a resume, Googling "MSN emoticons" (lol I apparently don't have enough *boohoo*), and copying the 50 000 pictures I downloaded off the Net today onto my USB. I swear I will sort that thing out someday. Someday!

I'll add to this later. Maybe I'll talk about today and tomorrow sometime soon. I hope. I'll just write up what I wanna say on my laptop first.

Thank god for technology!

TTYL... ;-> <3 the Kanji Queen \^^^/

Plans and projects...

2009-07-09T18:11:00.004+10:00

Hey. You know what?
Today was supposed to be about getting my social life back.
But, because some things didn't go as planned (Pick up your damn phones!!!), I never got to enact that particular plan. Which was to hang out at two of my not-best-friends-but-still-good-friends' houses.

I guess I'm suffering from a notable case of the bloghorrhea...or lack of it. I feel really depressed etc etc...

And then I start laughing because Daniel, while yelling "Ra ra ra ar!" at me, ran towards his bedroom door at top speed and just narrowly misses the door frame.

That's probably enough from me and my blabbermouth, I'll just go now.
;-D

Don't miss the blog entry at http://weirdandfabulous.blogspot.com/ and I'll live to blog another day!

A continuation...

2009-06-26T20:17:00.004+10:00

So life goes on as normal. Almost.
What do you do when you don't even know what's going on this weekend?!
On the plus side, I've kinda taken to the piano again - if i can get off this darnded computer that is. I'm going to try and play "Fur Elise"! Something other than "Paparazzi"by Lady GaGa, which happens to be my latest obsession...Which reminds me, if I wanna play the acoustic I've got to get Wavepad working. Uuurgh.

What else is there to write about?? Oh, that's right. I've got a laptop! A brand-spanking-new shiny grey Toshiba! OK, it isn't brand spanking new (that was an exaggeration) but it will do...more than enough. All right! I GOT A LAPTOP!!!! WOO HOO!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!! :-D

I should go now before I can't control myself with blogging logorrhea.
Bah!

It doesn't feel like the end of Term 2 =S

2009-06-25T20:20:00.010+10:00

I am going to write, about all the weird things that've happened this week. Even if I don't really want to write....I should apologise for sounding so reluctant! I LIKE blogging!! It's only because this week has been so painful and yet so wonderfully dramatic at the same time.

Here goes...

Well, I can't even remember the beginning of this week, I'm that idiotic. But I (and others close to me) know something shocking and blatantly UNTRUE (yes, there IS a reason for the CAPITALS!) happened on...Monday, was it?? I'll keep my lips zipped and the only thing I have to say about it is that it is well and truly behind me.

Have I meantioned a blog title change?? Well, I wanna change the title of this blog to "Deranged in Suburbia". OK, OK, it's a bit weird, I was originally thinking "Depressed in Suburbia" but since I'm not depressed per se, I don't think I can use it. Let me know about titles, OK?

Today was a bum because I decided to actually try for the music room, K6 in our school, and guess what? I actually got to use it at second recess. But only to get my hopes crushed and my beloved music room invaded, by a group of Year 12's who are so obviously prettier, smarter, better at piano and ruder than yours truly. I honestly felt and still feel so stupid and useless and...Forget it. :'( I'll just gorget it because I have been showed up by people two years older than me, so I guess it seems only fair I have regained my dislike of older kids. :-(

What else is there to say?? Oh, I just remembered. On Tuesday, I got a little surprise...ok, it wasn't really little. (I was going to paste some stuff in but it won't let me.)

I've really got to go now...A shout out to all my friends! And Murray! X-D

Something I want you to see.

2009-06-15T22:19:00.001+10:00

Hey guys, I've posted my English short story to TUaOS
aka http://drama-queen-utopia.blogspot.com/

So please check it out when you can...Sorry this is so short. Look at the time!

Work. No work. Work. AARGH!!!

2009-06-10T17:56:00.004+10:00

I suppose a better title would be, "I am completely buggered after everything that has happened this week, so far," but I think that's a wee bit too long.

OK. In short cuz I don't have a lot of time:

I have a gazillion assignments, not all of which I like; but oh well, c'est la vie, I guess.
Murray and I...don't get me started. Have I mentioned I am the most difficult person in the history of the universe to be in a relationship with???
I have just discovered that Kristallnacht, on which I have to kind of write about (ok, ok, it's an assignment on a Hitler Youth member in Nazi Germany...) was on the night after a Full Moon...another reason why nothing should happen around a Full Moon. Needless to say our anniversaries are on Full Moons :-{

I really should get going now. Text/email/call me if you DESPERATELY need to speak to me, but otherwise, Í'm busy. Signing off from the computer now.

TTYL!

Another damn post.

2009-06-02T17:17:00.002+10:00

Am I getting logorrhoea?? Or is it blogghorrea??
I honestly think that maybe now I'm just posting because I forgot exactly why I'm posting. AArgh.
Well...School is a shitass this week, as is evident.
I guess since I'm on a 15 min computer again, if I got nothin 2 say here, I'll just be going.
Sayounara.

My love to all my friends and M...I think I forgive you...TALK 2 ME!!! lolz

TTYL!

Rainy days..

2009-05-31T21:55:00.003+10:00

As I was lamenting to Tamara this morning, rainy days are so gloomy...
meant for lounging around and doing things you've been putting off for ages...
reminiscing...
drinking hot chocolate and posting to this blog...

And maybe I really should get up and go to bed now. After all, it is my bedtime.

Talk later.
:)

Depression?

2009-05-21T15:49:00.005+10:00

Oh. My. God.
I do realise that in Irene Davenport-world (or in this blog :->) I use that expression a leetle too much, ESPECIALLY to start blog posts off.
Which should be a bad habit I should tire of.

What has just OMG'd me is the fact that I have not written in nearly a month, even though in abovementioned past month I have been up to the craziest, stupidest antics. Honestly, I'm not as wired to the Net (or my Nokia mobile, come to think of it) as I used to be.

But yeah. Allow me to debrief quickly: I'm still going out with Murray, no matter how bad his haircuts get (ahaha - reference to earlier Thursday 21/5...), I'm still confident, no matter how many people take random photos of me in the shopping centre with my mum's old jumper on (CHRISSSSSS!!!!! Jks) and I'm still...

What am I still?

Depressed is what I am still.

It doesn't matter how many outings I go to, how many new siblings I get each day of the week, how my skin's going (blech bad skin day Tuesday 17/5) or how much money/new things I have. Sometimes I think it really doesn't matter.

Why? I think it's because, well, I'd rather have you not know this, but maybe I'm just a coward inside, you know? Like maybe I am who I am, feeling all on-top-of-the-world and all that, and then people come along and burst my bubble.

And of course it's never who I expect. Or when, either, because I always feel like maybe I come unprepeared to everything. Hello, you are talking to the person that, from the age of 8 (the age of my "changing". Well, actually, it was 7 but it didn't show then), procrastiated on assignments and homework.
Maybe I had a bit of a good streak from about 2nd term Grade 6 (in 1st term, while I was still new, I had to do a poster on a country. I had to hand it in late. My teacher made me, along with two others, stand up in front of the whole class. :-/) but lately, in Year 10, supposedly the most important year of my life (I did say supposedly), that seems to be slipping.

And it's people standing there humiliating me that I hate. I don't even KNOW why I'm sidetracking this much, except for the fact that maybe this has got something to do with my failure complex.

My failure complex??
Let's just say there's more to me than words, at least my words, can ever express.

Yes, I think I'm suffering from depression. Over the past month or two now anyway. Maybe the people who know me and my dearest could even say "Birds of a feather, flock together". Maybe knowing him, knowing him better, made it worse, I don't know. Now I'm standing around apologising for things I didn't even do, saying everything's my fault, feeling as if I've never really achieved anything with my life (so far), and crying in public. At least a lot more than I used to.

And maybe this is all because of the cowardice (see above mentioned...) Maybe I'm too weak. I sometimes take my friends' jokes more seriously when I'm in a bad mood. I'm not stupid enough to know that a visit from a Popular or a Wannabe Popular is bad news, which is why I prefer to avoid them. I let my parents do things I don't approve of, simply because I'm the dependant and "not old enough to know right from wrong".

If anything seriously bad happens, though, I'll let you all know. My love and best wishes to Murray, who I'm sure has gotta be reading this (:-D) , and my great best friends Rebecca, Tegan, Jacinta, TJ, and umm, anyone else?! You know who I mean.

I've got to go. More on this subject soon, you bet.
I haven't even grazed the tip of the iceberg.

Birthdays!

2009-04-20T14:59:00.003+10:00

Oh, would you believe it. Tomorrow I am 15. Oh joy.

Need I tell the world that because a certain...oh, fine. My mother drove off on me last night, and I was downright pissed off at her.

She blew out my candles...

Grrr.

TTYL.

P.S She's now charging me for phone calls :-@

3 days till I, the Kanji Queen \^^^/, am 15....<:-D

2009-04-18T12:46:00.003+10:00

Wow.

This is supposed 2 be the year when everything happens...and I thought all my dreams were shot to shit...

I was evidently very wrong!
X-D

God, what I'm doing right now (cause I just signed outta Twitter and can't be bothered signing back in) is, well, I'm over at SOMEONE'S place :-D and, umm, borrowing his (YES, I SAID HIS!!!!! I WILL NOT DENY IT!!!!!! I AM NOT LEZ!!!!!!! :-D ROTFL) internet.

And being very stupid, evidently.

God, I app- umm, evidently like the word evidently lately!

But that is really not the point.

Is it??

I'm always missing the point whatever I'm doing anyway, so I might as well sidetrack.

For those of you who actually LIKE plain English and not metaphors (omg hahah), I am at Murray's house (on a weekend) and yes, I am stealing his Internet because I haven't been on ours lately. In actual plain straightforward English, I mean that I have, along with the rest of my family, been dragged to entertaining, junk-food-serving venues in a futile bid by the parents to placate us (read: stop us 7 from fighting if we HAD been left at home).

Don't ask what I'm doing here, because I believe I already mentioned that.

Did I mention this has gotta be the longest post I have written in a while?

Oh, and yes, M is reading over my shoulder. :-)

And have I also mentioned I am a complete and utter idiot in the company of guys?!

I rest my case.
:-D

YAY!!!! I'm actually HAPPY for once!!!! Or am I???

2009-04-08T17:29:00.005+10:00

OMG omg OMG omg OMG omg *****OMG*****!!!!!!!!!!

I am soooooo happpppy 2day..... X-D

I really am. Just in case people from my school, or worse, A Certain Person, is reading this, I was made very happy today by a sweet little gesture :-D lol....

And then as soon as I got into the car - actually, make that half an hour after I got into the car - all hell broke loose.

I really hate my family. I wish I could disown them! I won't say how horrible they are because 1) that's sinking down to their level and 2) I don't (want to!) remember 1/2 the shit they done anyway.

And I had a RGD (Really Good Day) before that...

Let's just say as soon as something involves my family, it turns to total, utter, absolute shit.

:-l

Running away...

2009-03-31T13:55:00.002+10:00

Erk. I have a problem. Actually SEVERAL problems, but that isn't what I'm referring to.

I have a problem with running away. ACP doesn't know that I keep running. Maybe they do, but...I am committment phobic. Puh-lease.
I can't help it. I duck whenever the ball comes anywhere near me in Futsal. I run off the road when I see a car coming. I run when I think I'm in trouble.

What the hell is WRONG with me?!!

I'm not in trouble.

Am I??

Nobody ever tells you that things like this are ever gonna be this hard.

G2G, ACP is standing right here. Grrr!!!

Oh, my God...

2009-03-30T11:31:00.002+10:00

:-O

I did not seriously do what I did - oh crap, here comes trouble.
Yes, I am writing this at school. I just wish that certain things would just...I don't know, pass over! I really don't know how to deal with this crap.

My b'day wish list will be up here soon.

TTYL!
<3

Here we go again!

2009-03-27T15:52:00.002+10:00

I feel so guilty.

I think I may have a crush on a friend...AGAIN. But it's not the reason WHY I'm his friend this time. Hell no!

S.G.'s b'day is in 2 days...and I still feel guilty.

Grr. I have never been the best at articulating my feelings!

I miss Sam like hell. AAAAAAARGH I hate you SO MUCH yadda yadda yadda.

If only life (or love, incidentally) was as simple as a fucking scream.

HAHAHAHA!!!!

See you's all at school Monday!

...

2009-03-13T11:34:00.003+10:00

I had a breakdown yesterday afternoon.

:-(

I am on a computer now completing my HPE assignment which is unfortunately due last period and glad Miss B extended the Jap assignment to Wed. n.w. God. If only life were as simple as avoiding distractions such as posting to my blog...!

Art next...yay, something to look fwd to. Kind of. I'm finishing my lino print.

And still behind everybody!!!

Why am I always LAST??!

All's well that...begins well, becuase if it begins horribly, it's gonna end up like s**t.

At least, that's what I believe...

12/9/09
P.S. Friday the 13th???

Oh God...

2009-03-09T16:22:00.001+10:00

Just swamped. Really.
I mean...I have 29 new emails, (mostly from fuckin Bebo and shit...erk) and 2 assignments I haven't done because I was sick over the weekend!!!!!

GIVE ME A BREAK!!!!!!

Thank you.

#^_^#

Re: the hibernation...

2009-03-04T11:36:00.002+10:00

Hi everyone...this was a very unexpected time to write a post, but I'll do it anyway.
Just quickly:

I have at least 4 things due Fri, 2 assignments.
My home life is crap, M has a new house (again).
I'm interrogated every afternoon after school.
I don't like walking TO school.
I don't know what else.

Geez, I don't have time for much lately!
Talk to yous all later - I hope!

A leetle comment...

2009-02-18T17:33:00.004+10:00

If you've listened to "Rehab" by Rihanna, you'd know the 1st verse, which goes:

Baby, baby, when we first met

I never felt something so strong

You were like my lover and my best friend

All wrapped into one with a ribbon on it

And all of a sudden you went and left

I didn't know how to follow

It's like a shock that spun me around

And now my heart's dead

I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you

Don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?

It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back

And you're the one to blame

And I think it's so true.

The site's http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/rihanna/rehab.html

Sorry, I had to keep reminiscing.

TTYL!

P.S. If any of you are getting me a birthday present, (21st April) I want a diary!!! A good one!!!

Footnote :)

2009-02-04T18:30:00.000+10:00

I am pedantic - I'll admit it.
I'm pedantic about spelling, I'm pedantic about grammar, I'm pedantic about people touching my stuff.

However, something that I've never fully understood in the English language is how you are supposed to say "....(person) and I".
I, unfortunately, go, "me and (person)" unless, of course, that person is either older or closer to me.

So there you have an explanation of why I go "(AARGH!!!GRAMMAR!!!)" after each time I use that phrase.
Sorry if I bother any equally pedantic people out there.

And the inevitable has happened...

2009-02-03T17:15:00.008+10:00

So.

Monday has come and gone.

And yeah, Sam has left.
Aldridge.
Forever.

Sam, if you are reading this...
What can I say??!

I guess that's how I am most of the time when Sam ever factors into the equation. I mean, SERIOUSLY!!!

Yeah, we know you're not going to laugh at anything I say, Sam, BUT YOU'RE SERIOUSLY GONNA LAUGH AT THIS.

Because I have just decided to be open and honest with the whole world and admit a few things:

I like Sam (a lot. What has that got to do with anything though. If you've read Weirdoes lately, you'll know friendships really shouldn't cross the gender boundary. AARGH!!! :->)
I feel weird in Year Ten. Note nauseous feeling in stomach all day today.
Even though Sam and I (OMG I'm using proper grammar. See footnote) are just friends...I miss him. School is NOT the same.
Which brings me to my next point...In Maths, Mrs Kruger was calling the roll (obviously) and enquired after Sam (to which we all yelled, "He left.")
She then wanted to know WHERE, and I kind of yelled out "Brisbane" (I also heard Teale answer, but I honestly doubt Sam was friends with HER too. You know? They were just discussing it in the LAST Maths lesson. Grrr. I hate me and my stupid mouth. Why can't I just pretend like I don't KNOW anything??! Sam, I'm using your word now: I'm sidetracking. An annoying habit of mine :->)
R the G looked at me like I belonged on the protozoan level. No, seriously. I still hate myself. Irene Davenport the Know It All, here I come }:-{
And then I started.
CRYING!!!
Not very much thank God.
I was just like, Oh my God Sam's left, Oh my God Sam has LEFT ALDRIDGE!!!
I think I might actually be going insane!
Now before I explain, I'd like to, umm, explain myself (somehow!).
Sam, you will kill me. Maybe. 8-{ I just REALLY have to say I learnt something from our last convo...I have trouble reconciling me in here with me outside. What the fuck is Irene on about, you might wonder...I mean that my image/facade ain't who I really am (I think).
OK, that WASN'T the main point. What WAS the main point is that I have a HUUUGE guard up (hi. You may have discovered this before) and such a self-identified public image that if you go and take all that off, you get a clingy, immature, irritating little girl. Hi, Sam.
Or maybe that was the lack of confidence speaking.
I go between two extremes: 1, where I think I'm total shit, and 2, where I think I can rule the world. How does that make any sense?? None at all.
But that's me for ya.
I have never met anyone quite like Sam before, unless you're willing to cross me (minus self-esteem issues) and Stuart Stavrow, who was my first PROPER crush and a risque one at that #-) But what the hell. Everyone's unique. OTOH, my best friend Rebecca has astonishing similarities to my best friend for a while back in grade 6, Georgia. Hi peeps! ;->

That was REALLY HONEST me talking.
And being really honest, I don't tend to think I'm ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS...ok, sometimes I get egotistic. Or is it narcissistic?? I have a hundred or so photos of myself, most of them horrible #-(
But it is true. I am a self-deprecating person by nature.
And what you see...is that really me?
I've never seen myself from the outside, so I wouldn't have a clue.
All I can say is...
Sam Gold, I am SO going to miss you!
;->

My life has changed SO MUCH in the last year... :,(

2009-01-31T11:35:00.003+10:00

I guess what I'm trying to say is that yesterday will change my life...forever.
No, I'm not being melodramatic, but I won't tell you what transpired...it's not for me to tell you.

Just a warning:
Monday, I'll look like I've gone goth.
Whether that's a good or bad thing yet, IDK.

G2G.

See you all on Monday!

P.S. You all survived the 1st wk of Year 10!!! HOORAY!!!

Oh. My. GOD...WE ARE NOW YEAR 10ER'S!!!!

2009-01-27T16:32:00.004+10:00

For some reason, I really canNOT get over that fact.
Why is it so...unbelievable?
Or is the right word - le mot juste, as the French say - incredulous??
(BTW, I am amazed. French - Français - must be a natural language for me. I know what the word jeux means - it means games!!!! Thank You Parents!!! )

We go back to school tomorrow.
OMG.
My best friend is giving me a lift (her mother, more specifically. Dw peeps) for the exact same reason I'm panicking.

BTW, the reason I'm panicking is because I'm scared of major changes...being a Taurus I need that security (stable ground anyone???) otherwise I might as well be drowning. Lol.

It's a HUGE step.

Who knew time could fly by so QUICKLY???

OMG OMG OMG.
WE ARE GOING BACK TO THE HELLHOLE TOMOZ.
OH MY F****** GOD!!!!!!!

I honestly thought these holidays would - SHOULD - never end!!!!
It just feels so...unnatural to go back. Really.

OK. Have to go now. TTYL...
SAVE ME!!!!
PLEASE!!!!

Just joking!
;->

BLOG ANNOYANCE...:-|

2009-01-18T19:04:00.006+10:00

Grrr.

Paragraphing not working on my last post. Note the weirdness was not intentional...it just seems like Blogger can't paragraph for shit...any writer's worst nightmare!!!

I might as well keep writing since I just started a new post to write that...here goes on Last Week Recap (albeit a v crappy name ;>)

Today, my best friend Rebecca (a lot of you will know her so I'll just shorten her name to R. BTW, I'll just truncate everyone's names henceforth cuz I am supposed to be writing in shrt fm -lol olo) got furniture. Actually, just yesterday she got herself her OWN room. Women's Lib or no Women's Lib, this calls for some celebrations (before she was relegated to sharing - a fate I know a lot about).

YAY!!!!!!!!!

OK, I'm done now. Woohoo. I can get on with life now.

Anyway, I popped round to R's for a little today. But visits between friends can get a little out of hand - esp. when they involve food and (re)gift-giving [me and Bec have our own little stuff-swapping parties. Dunno how else to explain it. You know, if I've got somethin I don't want, instead of going in the bin, I know who to call. Saves the last resort - charity] - and instead of 10 minutes it ended up being more like 45. Needless to say, M got a little (A LITTLE?!) angry. She made me do all the housework...when I had nothing to do with lunch. Worse, I'd just got off my bike. You do know it takes me A-GES to get ANYWHERE on my bike, much less R's.

Even worse, R had given me a little box thing that she told me to give to M. When I did, M regarded it kind of - coldly. She asked me why, and I told her about the regifting. Unfortunately, I think she's, umm, a bit wary about it. God! Why can't some people take things at face value? It really hurts.

But anyway. Blogger sucks. Like everything else in life. Or my bike Rosalia. [I know it's cheesy, but I actually have a name for my bike...named when I was in GRADE 5. OMG]

And, I just realised, I suck too!

:-(

Anyway, catch Stellar Coincidences (I'm currently working on it!) at http://stellar-coincidences.blogspot.com/

Finally I can get around to typing...THE FIRST BLOG OF THE YEAR 2009!!

2009-01-09T17:07:00.007+10:00

Hi everyone, and a Happy New Year to all.

;-)

Now, to business.

I have thought about it long and hard.

Very hard actually, I came up with the idea on the toil - er, waste receptacle.

[Please don''t let my honest ways (:->) put you off, though.]

I think it may be time for me to adopt.

Oh, God. Really, there is no reason for you to TFO just yet. I mean, I'm turning 15 this year so it wouldn't even be legally possible.

Well, I guess the question I'm asking is this:
Do you think I can handle it??

In true Kanji Queen/WTD (Walking Talking Dictionary, MOTL) style, I am guessing no one knows what I am talking about, because I've used a double entendre.

But I mean, do you think I can handle SIX BLOGS?!
That's what the fuss is all about.

Oh, apart from me wanting my own life and all that, which is another story and will hopefully talk about later, if I ever get the time that is.

I am being serious about this, you know. I am going to adopt two new blogs. Not the way Brangelina, or Madonna, or, umm...(running outta examples here! :-s) other celeb couples do, but you get the picture. But I do seem to regard them as children - only I can't help feeling I'm quite a neglectful parent. Which is why I really wanna get a job ASAP and save up for a state-of-the-art laptop. Among other reasons. And I have other reasons for getting a job, just FYI. But that comes under me wanting my own life. Which we will hopefully discuss at a later date.

I can't help adding that if you are my soon-to-be employer and are reading this, I hope you (as well as a truckload of other adults) understand I am more than what I put out here. And to devoted fans and followers (of which I know of only one), the online story, like my diary, is very hollow. My diary, however, being more accessible thorughout the day, gets updated more frequently - but still not enough to fill all the gaps. If I ever get around to writing a book/story, I can only hope it will not be as flawsome. :->

Anyway. GOTH. (Getting Off Track Here).

I have a name for one of the nogs (new blogs): Stellar Coincidences, although peonally I think that's sucky/tacky, but I really don''t have any other ideas. I have no clue what to call the other nog, although it could be called The Up Side of Down.

I'm really addicted to blogging, aren't I??!

I realised I want to start The Up Side of Down, if that's what it's gonna be called, because Mum told me something which was very true: she said that I want to tell the whole world about my domestic suffering, when I'm not with her. And it is true, but I have to do it at a bit of a risk. :-(
Stellar Coincidences has been in the making for a while now - it is basically about astrology and the sheer number of coincidences I have in my life. Enough said.

To Kanji Queendom followers: I know I should say this on the web site, but I really can NOT be bothered doing a gazillion posts tonight. Anyway, I mean to say that it is amazing, but the Kanji Queen (that's me, ;->) isn't a workaholic, and, strangely enough, she has kinda gotten sick of kanji! No excuse though, I'll just pick up where I left off.

Teenage Utopia fans: Oh my God, are YOU in for a treat! Since it's now school holidays, and I now have more time (plus more daylight hours), I can post you more songs and, long awaited this, the first few instalments of Teenage Utopia! Of course, it'll be a good test to see if I can stick to my word.

All's fair in the blogosphere,
The Kanji Queen \^^^/

Blog boredom???

2008-12-29T16:23:00.002+10:00

Hello everyone, this is a post designed to be for all four of my blogs but I can't really be bothered.

If you do follow any of my blogs, you may well be asking yourself: Why isn't she bothering anymore?

My answer?
Because school holidays are boring.
Either that or they force you to examine the state of your family life, which for me is (pardon my English!) very shitty.

Anyone out there???!

Do YOU sift thru old emails, because you can't be bothered deleting 'em all??

2008-12-27T19:15:00.001+10:00

OK, hello everyone, I really have NOT published in a long time...holidays can be back killing and bum-numbling too!
I was going thru my school emails when I found this little gem of a unpublished (aka rejected) blog entry:

----- Original Message -----
From: The Kanji Queen
Date: Wed, 29 Oct 2008 13:52:29 +1000
To: The Blog of the White Dove
Subject: Insanity is a Gift
In all maddy madness, I have seriously gone insane. After all my careful time-planning (for what I'm going to do in my lunch breaks and after school), there is one thing that wrecks it all.If BB hadn't arrived at Aldridge, my world WOULDN'T have been stood on its head. I wouldn't HAVE stupid, stupid problems with the moron, and I wouldn't have my teacher coming up to me at break telling me about the progress of Operation Kill Bitch Backstabber. I sound so stupid.Anyway. I basically lost it outside J block because I only have 10 minutes to write to this blog. Actually, the bell's just gone for Access. Urgh. Lacrosse. How can I face anyone in my mental state? Much less sport??
-----End of Message-----

Anyways. If u don't know who BB is, call the cryology ward, because if someone froze her insults, they most possibly could kill. Oh, but they do anyway. I forgot that. Plus they get forged in her heart...which has the cooling capacity of Antarctica.
OK, maybe you can call the psych ward too. Because even though I am sufficiently qualified to enter the land of the terminally insane, most people don't think I qualify...because I don't want or need poison-laden darts in my arse. Whether they're going in, or shooting out, I don't really care. All I know is that my brain isn't filled with such hateful delusions that I need the padded room.
Maybe I should stop ranting. But it feels GREAT to get all that venom out of my system...publicly.
Do you know who The Bitch is now???

BTW, if you do know her identity, which I am keeping oh-so-un-libelously secret, and you would like to prove me wrong, please do so. Tell me she's a great friend. Tell me her heart has unfroze, and she has emerged a better person. Tell me she, and you most likely, didn't have fun while you publicly humiliated my friends and I. Tell me you, her, and the rest of your little nasty clique do not thrive on belittling others.

Because what has she done for you?
That's a question you should ask of every user in this world.

P.S. Does anyone want to celebrate??
If you are platonically related to me...you will most definitely know what I mean.

This is a SHORT post!

2008-12-03T16:36:00.002+10:00

Hey people, writing from lib comp AGAIN...can't believe there's only a week till school lets out...YAY!!! Anyhoo, I just want to say to SOME people that OHMIGOD YOU REALLY THOUGHT THAT.
That is too wrong to write (what they thought I mean).
And it's all because in Access I found a SCREW on the seat behind me. Oh God. Give me a BREAK guys!
That goes for you too, Sam. God. I don't play handball, I am not male. I think you know that ;->
But anyway, I know I must look really sucky not doing anything in Access but sport is simply not my thing. Unless it involves being a tomboy and climbling trees, shooting rifles or threatening to bash some people up (which doesn't really qualify as a sport, but it SHOULD).
I think I g2g.
Irene oxox ;-*
P.S. Any ideas for rants I can publish???
P.P.S. I am so stressing, I have an Art essay due in Fri. Really busy.
p.p.p.s. I have 2 go. ttyl!

Stress can kill you...I know. I'm dead already...

2008-11-29T20:11:00.002+10:00

OK, so I exaggerated. A lot. But presently I feel like I died, and me being the avid diary-writer that I am, feel I haven't spent enough time on it. Not to mention shut-eye time, and free time!
And, bad as it is, my stomach feels like I swallowed a stone. A big huge on etoo (lol, I didn't mean to write that. I meant "one too").
You might have already gathered I'm in a terse, pithy, untalkative mood. Well, I guess there is not much to talk about. Plus I don't have enough TIME to talk. I.e. typing songs for Teenage Utopia (when was the last time I posted there??!) and kanji for The Kanji Queendom.
Erk. I am so overworked.
Oh God...
Someone tell me to slow down!!!!
:-s

Umm, insanity is taking me OVER!!

2008-11-19T16:16:00.002+10:00

Hey everyone, I write this from a 15 min express computer with the comforting knowledge that my mother does not have the Internet on her home computer.
I think I'm running a race with insanity, and insanity is winning.
G2G.

My perfect life...NOT!

2008-11-19T16:14:00.001+10:00

Geez, can someone DIE from exhaustion??!
I mean, come on. God. I can't even get any sleep lately (I think I may be pushing myself a leetle TOO hard).
Well, I'm in F7, in the middle of my glorious Jap class. No body has noticed I'm not typing up my draft yet. And Sam still has my Jap dictionary. I think. Yes. He does, actually.

Jesus, is it REALLY appropiate to take trips down memory lane??!

2008-11-13T20:33:00.004+10:00

Hey people...Yes, I have an excuse for not writing lately...I was flat out busy today!!!! I mean, finishing a SOSE draft AND a Jap draft AND an Ag test (that we, incidentally, don't get till Monday) is BUSY!!!!
;-D
Soo...
Basically, I was reminiscing about Maths (I was writing in my diary like 4 hrs ahead of schedule!).
I still remember that 1st day, back when I didn't know Sam (SHOCK! HORROR!) and I was almost Nigel in my Ext Maths class if it wasn't for my friend Tegan. :-D
I also still find myself staring out the window in Maths and looking back into grade 2, grade 7, grade 5, grade 4...
The past is NEVER going to let me go, is it?!

P.S. I no I already wrote this on Bebo, but I'll repeat it for the unfortunate: Sam, u BUM!!!!! U just HAD to turn the fucking fan on high ON MY SIDE OF THE ROOM!!!!! (if u were in d2 in 3rd p u'd no wat im talkin about) Maybe Mrs E should move you AWAY from the damn fan switches! (Either that, or do it and DON'T look around the room guiltily...I new it was you anyway!!! :-D)

P.P.S. C u who nos wen.
;-)

Thursdays is when Jupiter feels generous...

2008-10-31T06:33:00.005+10:00

...and gives me a heap of good luck!

Weird title, eh? It's basically a figurative way of saying "Thursdays are the best days of the week for me."
I'm being honest. Well, it IS the only day of da week we don't have English, which relieves me. I swear, if I have to put up with their shit any longer...I'll just kill myself!!!!
Ok, exaggeration, but I'll get pretty close to it.
Getting back on track now...

Well, Thursday is the best day of the week because...

I was born on a Thursday (and so was Quinn, my little brother)
After Wednesday (which leaves out Art and Japanese), Thursday's timetable is as follows: Art, SOSE, 1st Break, Maths, Japanese, 2nd Break, Ag.
No English. Enough said on THAT particular subject already!
Ag is last...that means no Ag tomorrow. Yay! (No more sweating while over the road weeding or over theory)
When Japanese comes back on on Thursdays, it brings endless mirth...(Mirth, noun. Meaning joy, laughter, happiness.)

One of the reasons Japanese is my favourite subject is because there is this expansive sense of camaraderie...(Well, not SOME PEOPLE, whom I think are in it for fun...but it's not like there's a lot of variety with subjects anyway.)

Another reason...Sam. If you are reading this, God, you ARE my friend, but I swear I DID NOT MEAN TO DO THAT YESTERDAY!!!!! OK, for the uninitiated, I mean, when Miss B mentioned すてき means "lovely"but it can also mean "hot", I did NOT blush (Rebecca and Jacinta said I turned an unnatural shade of pink) and stare at a particular person...and even worse is when, in a futile attempt to stop my weirdness, I covered my face with my pencil case.

Really. That is just SO 恥ずかしい. (embarassing)
:-(

Another reason: my friends excluding Sam (a, I don't hang out with you all the time, and b, you're male. Not being sexist, though I often am). Well, I mean Rebecca and Jacinta. Before Aldridge, I never had a friend that liked Japanese like I did.

G2G 4 Brekky. TTYL!

Employment...

2008-10-28T07:00:00.004+10:00

I can't believe I have to wait 3 months till I can get a job.
I mean, really. What kind of rule is that?

OK, maybe a rule to stop noobs like me from entering the workforce at the tender (puke) age of 14½.
I went to Australian Jobsearch to do my homework (not literally!), because it was a link in my homework diary, and I went to the Career Quiz. Guess what I found?

I am most suited to a "creative" job, then, after that, a "practical" job.
Lol. Hahahahaha.

Guess that's me for ya.
Gotta sign off...school time!

Writing from school - sorry if this looks funny! (A few days late)

2008-10-28T06:41:00.001+10:00

Hi everyone.
Today I will be ranting about school computers!
OK, bad way to start a rant. I'll just add, on the note of school computers, that Education Queensland has blocked Blogger and any sites on Blogger due to the

Department of Education, Training and The Arts's Managed Internet Service Filtering Policy.

Grrr.

OK. About my day (or week): It's been pretty good so far. Yesterday my 3 best friends and I helped with the preparations for the Art Show. (It was a Pupil Free Day. ) I guess even the best of friends aren't perfect.

Today we did ANOTHER (looong, boooring, bum cramping) practise of the Speech Nite thingy.

OK, gotta go 2 Ag. Will write later.

TTYL!

My school is shit. Really.

2008-10-27T13:56:00.003+10:00

Hello everyone. It is a very curt "hello" because I am peed off at my school.
I mean it.

Exampli gratia: My English class. It is full of immature idiots and a teacher who can't control them effectively. Sorry Miss, you're a nice teacher, but if you knew what those boys were doing to me inside, you'd gasp. Really.

Today the Subject of Teasing was...me, much to my chagrin. I found myself at the centre of stupid, asinine comments about who I'd like to go out with, my nationality and why I'm so smart.
And then after feeling sorry for myself like I did, I then went on to plot revenge.
Details later.

On a more positive note, I re-sent the older blog post - turns out I sent it to *@blogspot.com instead of *@blogger.com. Grrr. Computers are SO ANNOYING!!!
The same could go for humans, too.

In Art, I pulled a total spaz and had to go to the bathroom to clean up. What a fantastic day it has been. What a lesson - it, unfortunately, ended with some FAGGOT smashing (umm, this may be one of the faggots involved with my self-esteem's breakdown) my best friend's pot which she had JUST COMPLETED. God, life is SO UNFAIR. But, you know, shit happens.

Now we are all mad...well, us two are anyway.
The perfect end to an extremely shitty day?
Having SOSE last.

And believe me, we all know the shit hits the fan in G3.
Just you wait and see.
:-|

Be Careful What You Wish For...

2008-10-17T21:37:00.003+10:00

I hat emoving. (Comic relief, people...)

I've moved so much in my life, that instead of adapting to a semi-nomadic lifestyle, I've grown up resenting it. Mum recently moved from Granville (a suburb of Maryborough) to the actual city Maryborough, and that caused a whole shit load of changes. And, in my opinion, problems.

For example the move means we haven't fully unpacked everything. It's been 2 or 3 months since we moved now, and Mum still hasn't bothered to unpack the computer yet. (This is a total sin against computing! I can hardly do anything without it nowadays…including posting to this blog.)

Which is why, for last Saturday, anyway (and due to the cold harsh raininess of the past few days I figured it'd be best to stay inside) I'm retreating to my best friend Rebecca's house (good thing it's near by or I woulda SCREAMED!)

Yeah. We ARE talking about Rebecca. That afternoon consisted of watching The Addams Family (again :-<), being a weirdo with Rebecca (duh, what else can you BE with her around?!) and talking to her mum about how much of a pain my little brother Quinn is.

Which is another reason to visit my strange best friend. My painfully irritating 9-year-old brother, Quinn. Mum has noticed Quinn just WON'T SHUT UP! I mean, he keeps stirring Alisha (my little sister) and me up all the time. (I know it ain't proper grammar... Saying "Alisha and me", I mean.) For no reason. He is truly an asshole. (Which is not a very nice thing to say about my own brother, my own flesh and blood. But oh well, he's been nasty to me and Alisha about 5 million times!)

Something else of relevance: He was being a bastard on the way HOME from Rebecca's. May I also point out my ex, Toby, lives down the same street as my WBF. And Mum pulled over to deal with the PITB - right outside Toby's house. Needless to say his mother walked out onto the front stairs to see what was going on, and I had a little chat to her. With Alisha in tow. Obviously, I got out of the car first. :-#

After his mum and I had been talking for approx. 5 minutes, guess who comes around the corner. Yes, you guessed it. On their bikes, with one of his mates in tow. He muttered a very terse "Hello" and let himself and his mate into his yard. Then everything went and sorted itself out...kind of. There's still more to my stuffed up (love) life, though...

They say be careful what you wish for, and I admit to wishing last year (in my A.P. phase. I mean, God! I wouldn't have done it otherwise...) that I caught the same bus as him - the Ululah bus. But, I mean, come ON! Isn't there such a thing as forgiveness? (Answer: Not amongst the people of Aldridge, there isn't.)

Seriously, though, I used to have a crush on him. %-)
And guess what?

Now that my mother's moved to near Ululah (Park, you know, Anzac Park??) I am now, regretfully, catching the Ululah bus to and from school.

With Smart Alex still on it. :-<
There is also an added bonus (snort!): C.E. also catches it in the mornings.

On a more optimistic note, I'm glad I catch two buses in the afternoons – the Tinana bus to St. Mary's Primary and the Ululah bus from there on. My friends Melissa and Tayler catch the Tinana bus, and we all sit squished up the front on the sideways seat.

One last word: I hate change, too!

Umm...Did I promise people photos???

2008-09-26T22:55:00.005+10:00

Ok. So I did promise photos...Seriously, I haven't had the time lately. Plus my brothers hog the comp all the time and idk wen i can put photos up...Oh ok I'll do it!!
Trip Photos

Basically photos of our hotel, the Bahia. It was pretty cool, actually! :-)
I'll show the party photos soon. 2 busy. Cyas and have fun in ur holidays!
P.S. I no I'm not the most dedicated blog author but if I got my own computer, I would be, out of boredom. :->